Saturday, March 12, 2011

the blaming game

My friends here kept on asking me how come I have no girlfriend(s).

They figured that it's because I don't go to the gym and thus girls think I am too skinny. They can't seem to come up with other reasons.

They didn't seem to understand me when I told them that many people are blind, and would miss the most obvious good things before their eyes.

Some, on the other hand, have too many eyes for too many things, and always try to go after things they haven't called their own yet. In such pursuit, one is bound to make some dear misses.

For too long I have blamed myself for my apparent failures in the past.
I shall blame myself no more.
I just realised that I never gave up, I never backed away from my promises. My efforts were perhaps insufficient, but they were never less than what I could spend.
How could I have blamed myself despite these?

And now that I blame myself no more, I feel VERY stupid that I have been blaming myself so much for so long a time. I was blind too, my zillion eyes seeing only one and missing out on the rest of the world and possibilities.

(Yet true to my character...I am very sure that if given the chance again, I would be very eager to see only that one again and ignore the rest of the world. Paradoxical.)

If only I am as focused in my research!

Today is my last day in Chennai. Tomorrow a new chapter begins.

And if my friends stay true to their word and find me a beautiful Indian bride, then I can start a new book, not just a chapter. =)
Don't worry mom, I will inform you a couple of days before the wedding.


rendah varam appuram pakkalam.

6 comments:

  1. a great guy deserves a great girl. Be warned! she'll be there soon dont lose faith..

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  2. haha. how are you ar? when I return we need to go grab some desserts, like durian ice cream or something.

    nobody deserves 'someone' one la. it's either suka or not, that's all. I wouldn't be surprised if FayeWong likes me, though many would say that she deserves better hahaha.

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  3. YH:

    Totally agree with Farah. A great guy deserves a great girl or vice versa. Suka is another thing, but once you get to know each other and dig each other's background, you will be surprised. Trust me, I am Dr. Love. -grin-

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  4. you are a doctor, but I only know you as an animal doctor leh...where did the "Love" part come about? haha. mana credentials? or banyak experience?

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  5. Ces YH! Don't you know I have 6 ex-bfs before Jai??

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  6. WOW!!!!!!

    I see you in a new light now.
    Hahaha.

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