no pictures, but good for diary

the main reason I made this blog, and named it "Life is a series of pictures", was because I no longer wanted to write a blog that's ridden with complaints, of heartbreaks, of disappointments and anguish.

I didn't want a blog, a public portal, to be my outlet for negative emotions.

So I thought that by framing every post around pictures, I can safely avoid the 'ARGH !@##^%&$^" trap.
That's because I am still not good at capturing candid shots of people doing sad things, like littering, swearing, fighting, breaking up, starving etc.
No sad pictures = no sad post.

So far, so good.

Yet it doesn't mean that I have no negative emotions since the beginning of this blog. In fact, as some of you know, these past 6 months were definitely the most turbulent (emotionally) period of my life thus far. The joy ascended heaven, the pain breached hell. (Wah...a bit too dramatic!).

Steering away from the blog, my diary has once again claimed the attention it enjoyed without reserve years ago. When I started blogging a few years back, it took over the role of my diaries. However, because blogs are public, private affairs had to be ambiguous, hiding the punches and needles of how I actually felt at the time. On the other hand, my diaries are...a no hold-back, no stone unturned question and answer session with me and myself.  

I love reading what I wrote a week ago, half a year ago, three years ago, 10 years ago... Memories faded, but those words stayed, and I can't pretend that I didn't write them.

My diaries (having changed quite a few over the years) recorded most of my heartaches and very little joy. When I was happy, I had no time to record them. That's okay--I tend to remember the happy moments anyway; it's the darker days that I need to recall to remind myself that 'hey, it wasn't all that rosy, it was pretty ugly at times too.'

Reading my diaries, I realised that I have indeed grown up, I have matured. (Phew~).

I wanted to take a picture of my diaries for this post, but I decided not to. I think they would rather remain unseen haha.