Missing someone

I have been told several times by several people that I have trouble getting over my ex-girlfriend.
I don't think they really understand it.

Then again, maybe it's true, and it's just me that's having some psychological issues.

Nevertheless, over the past few years, ever since I got together with her, I missed her so much when I was away from Davis, or when she's away from Davis. This happened even when it was just an overnight trip away. This also happened regardless of whether we were together or broke up.

As I told my mom, the 'title' of 'boyfriend/girlfriend' means very little to me.
I have had feelings for too many people without being their boyfriend, and cared for them a lot.
It's the feelings that count, no?
So yeah, my undergrad research assistant, if she reads this, would say I have serious issue getting over my ex.
Maybe.
But even if it's true, is it...bad?
Nobody has showed me that it's possible to love someone and give him/her a lot a lot even if there's no obligation to do so.
I feel ...at times, I am walking a path, alone.

On the other hand, I have tried to stray away from my nasty habit of calling my ex when I am away.
My mom said I shouldn't disturb others so much; that I shouldn't always be a neverending presence because that might irritate others.

So I guess I am writing this here to vent a bit.
What else can I do? Hanayo isn't here...and there's no bubble tea here in Albuquerque either (not as far as I could tell).